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Title: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Xiggie | Stone on July 10, 2013, 02:54:40 pm First off I want to say this is not a ploy for pity or a ploy for people to give me stuff. I am not looking for anything. I just want to share something significant with a community that I consider my community.
For the last several years my job has been taking care of my parents and my uncle, in particular my mother. I do everything for them, I cook every meal they have, I clean our house, my mothers side of my parents room and largely take care of everything with my uncle, (he is severely mentally handicapped and has the mind of a 3 or 4 year old, if that). I also handle their finances and have been very proud to be the one to help them be more financially smart and get the most out of their dollar. At one point they were paying a ludicrous amount monthly for a tv and I found a better one that they could buy brand new for 3 of their payments. I love my parents and even though the work I do equals out to much more than a full time job I do it with pride. It is because of those commitments that I have made that I don't have much of a social life. EZ has been the most of my social life for the last several years, since 2008. Even though there are some of you that I don't know, some of you I don't like, some of you don't like me and some of you don't even play here anymore but you are all a part of my social life. There are some of you that are quite significant. The best friends that I have right now play on this server. Fugitive, you are my best friend and I thank you for that friendship. On the 4th of July I found my mama unresponsive in her bedroom. On the 7th of July she passed away in ICU. I would say that a huge chunk of my heart was ripped out that day but it's still there and I feel it everyday. I've never felt anything so devastating in my life. I realize I am probably sharing more than some might on an online gaming forum but this is my social outlet. Because of my life and the commitments I've made this is where I go to have a social life. I wanted to share something that is more significant than anything that has ever happened in my life with the community that I have chosen to have my social life with. Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Sarthin on July 10, 2013, 03:16:04 pm I am terribly sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing this.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Goth on July 10, 2013, 03:21:43 pm I'm very sorry to hear about this, my deepest sympathy and condolences to you and your family
Hugs Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: hateborne on July 10, 2013, 03:30:31 pm I've got nothing. There is nothing amusing, annoying, or even trollfaced that will help. The only bit that I can say is that the best I can offer is to group up and attempt to pewpew whatever tier you are in together. Sometimes the best way to move through a traumatic event is bury yourself in the things you do daily and the pain will slowly fade.
-Hate Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Premador on July 10, 2013, 03:47:53 pm My condolences to you and your family.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Felony on July 10, 2013, 04:00:20 pm I may not like you very much but I am very much sorry to hear this.
If you still have my cell and ever want to talk you can call me up, feel free to cuss at me or something. Just blow off steam if you need to. Otherwise we'll see you when you are able and want to get online again. Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Abrums on July 10, 2013, 04:19:47 pm Sorry to hear about this Xiggie. I wish I had more to say but I am not good with words. My thoughts are with you and your family.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Nexxel on July 10, 2013, 04:25:55 pm Havent played in a while, but still check in, and you have my condolances. Loosing a parent is a hard thing to go thru.
Like some have said the Pain doesnt just "go" away. It just becomes more bareable. :( Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Dethundrel on July 10, 2013, 05:05:17 pm So what you're really tryin to say is, deep down, you're a chicken shit.
( It's a movie quote, with no offense intented. It's actually rather endearing. If you don't know the quote, look for it before getting mad and you'll understand it. ) Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Chunka on July 10, 2013, 05:24:28 pm Xig, nothing but respect for you for what you do for your family....and nothing but sympathy for your loss. I had to deal with similar issues this year, and it sucks.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Solbash on July 10, 2013, 05:41:46 pm Damn brother, I'm sorry to hear about that. I feel your pain as I had to visit my mother's grave for the past 10 years. We go way back to 2008, you were a huge part of my social life when I played a lot, and I miss the days of 14 hour anguish runs, and the rants in ventrilo. If you ever need anything man, inbox me and I'll shoot you my number.
Keep strong man, hit me up when you get a chance. Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Xiggie | Stone on July 10, 2013, 05:57:58 pm Thank you all for your kind words, thoughts and condolences. It does mean a lot to be able to come to my community and poor my heart out at a time like this and get heartfelt response in return.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: lookin on July 10, 2013, 06:11:07 pm my condolences xig.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Hunter on July 10, 2013, 06:39:42 pm I feel your pain. About 2 years ago I had the chance to say good bye to a family member that has always been there for me, and died shortly after. Even to this day still hard to think about it.
My condolences as well. Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Fugitive on July 10, 2013, 07:11:07 pm We talked in vent bro, keep strong! and thanks our friendship too!
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: actarus on July 10, 2013, 07:16:34 pm xiggie even tho i dont know you i wish you and your family the deepest condolences i can relate to how it is for you as i too have a brother who is mentally handicapped and have tried to help my parents take care of him for the last few years and i know how much work that can be i havent had much chance to play on ez lately but if you happen to see any of my <legion of doom> crew online please feel free to send a tell if you just need to talk or wanna kill some time to get things off your mind
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Fliker on July 10, 2013, 07:25:16 pm On second shift this week again. Will be in vent late if ya need another ear. And my other info never chages.
Losing a parent is a pain I've delt with for 14 years. I'm here for ya Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Kwai on July 10, 2013, 10:50:52 pm I am very sorry to hear of the loss of your Mom. I admire your fortitude and commitment to your folks and wish you gentle peace in your time of mourning and reflection.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: chunkumss on July 11, 2013, 02:54:16 am Dear Xiggie,
My deepest sympathies go out to you. You've been a very loving son, and cared for your family with great respect and responsibility. I will pray for comfort for you in this difficult time. Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Duluum on July 11, 2013, 08:56:06 am Sincere condolences Xiggie
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: grim2594 on July 12, 2013, 12:54:50 am You have my condolences, Xiggie.
I know I haven't been around, on EZ, for a very long time... but I remember you just the same. May time heal your wounds. (You too Solbash!) Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Kovou on July 14, 2013, 10:15:27 am I do feel your pain my friend i know we are not close but we have gotten into trouble together and you have helped me a lot in the past. I will not say I'm sorry b/c honestly im sure you are tired of hearing it i know i would be. I am a stay at home dad who takes care of both my mother and my father I am afraid b/c of their health problems they are not long so i understand kinda what you must be going thru. I have only done this for 4 years but i love my parents and have no idea what I'll do when i lose them. If you ever need someone extra to talk to (i've found you can never have to many ppl to talk to) please hit me up on here or on the game bro
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: krakon on July 14, 2013, 10:15:20 pm My condolences Xiggie. I just lost my mother in the last month. I feel your pain brother monk.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Digz on July 14, 2013, 11:05:45 pm sorry to hear Xiggie...i couldn't even begin to imagine what you're going through, hang in there.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Rosalitan on July 17, 2013, 01:48:39 pm Condolences on your loss Xiggie
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: nuska on July 21, 2013, 07:45:10 pm I haven't played emu in a long time, this server in particular for a long time. Just happened to have the desire to check this out again. Sorry for your loss Xiggie. Hope your friends have been helping you through. Played eq for so long, i have made some very good friends and still talk to them. Good thing skype is free, 5 years of 10+ hour chats every day just about woulda been expensive.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Pimpn on August 03, 2013, 07:50:16 pm Sorry for your loss Xiggie
Stay strong brother Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Xiggie | Stone on August 03, 2013, 09:42:00 pm Thank you to everyone. I was kind of hesitant to post this all out in the open on a gaming forum but I really wanted to share this with my community. It didn't matter how well we did or didn't get along in game or whether we knew each other at all people came out of the woodwork to express sorrys and condolences. Thank you, it has all meant a lot to me.
Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: hateborne on August 04, 2013, 12:16:52 am Thank you to everyone. I was kind of hesitant to post this all out in the open on a gaming forum but I really wanted to share this with my community. It didn't matter how well we did or didn't get along in game or whether we knew each other at all people came out of the woodwork to express sorrys and condolences. Thank you, it has all meant a lot to me. For the record, you are still a whore and I still blame everything on you or "He who shall not be mentioned". Not because I'm serious, but because it's distracting. Distractions help in times of need. So...yeah...you're a whore. >:-) -Hate Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Xiggie | Stone on August 04, 2013, 12:41:29 am Thank you to everyone. I was kind of hesitant to post this all out in the open on a gaming forum but I really wanted to share this with my community. It didn't matter how well we did or didn't get along in game or whether we knew each other at all people came out of the woodwork to express sorrys and condolences. Thank you, it has all meant a lot to me. For the record, you are still a whore and I still blame everything on you or "He who shall not be mentioned". Not because I'm serious, but because it's distracting. Distractions help in times of need. So...yeah...you're a whore. >:-) -Hate Lol Title: Re: To a community that I have called a friend for a long time Post by: Rent Due on August 04, 2013, 03:34:03 pm I haven't been on lately and just saw this post.
very sorry for your loss and you are right, if this is where your friends are, so be it, some people live out there in the crazy world, and some of us choose to live here in this crazy world. I should be back on after summer and Im sure to see you then be well my friend |